Jealousy

It always kill

~Jealousy~

It's your right to flirt around

I have no right to voice anything

A Real Ending

I am on a highway for twice today, driving alone through and flow. It is quiet, it is lonely....But I like it, I have time to clear my mind and clear up thoughts. I've think deeply, over and over again.

When a glass broken into pieces, no matter how hard you try to mend it back, there will be always cracks on it.

 

For the sake of goodness, for the betterment of you and me, why not letting all those messy thingy behind and look forward in life for anything meant to be.

It is almost 10 months since the day we leaved each other, undeniable I am still bugging on it once in a while but I've tried all sorts of solution and found out IGNORANCE is the best way I could do to make myself live better.

You are already attached to someone else whom you loved her and same goes to her. You found someone who is meant to be yours. Why not stay still and go on with your current life?

I do not hope my life get ruin again, I do not wish to get hurt for the third time, I do not wish the pain in my heart get worsen.

You always wanted to care or should I say you care all the while. Seriously, I do not know why you still want to care so much since I'm no longer important to you. We are no longer having any connection or relation with each other.

After all, it is my own problem insisting with ignorance.

You said you care because after all the hurts u did to me, because you hurted me so much, that's why you want to care as much as you can now? You think by doing this way, you could heal the broken pieces? You said I will always be someone special to you and you want to care me as your dear. It is much confusing when you utter out such words, what will your gf think of you? How would others see you? After what you've done in these period of time, how others see you? How would your family feel for you?

Human changes but do it on a right way, get on the right track. Not hurting people surrounding you. It's enough, please let me go.

I ignored you, hated you because whenever I heard or see you, the hatred in me get deeper, the pain in me get worsen, as if you are adding salt on the scar. Now you understand why I do not want your care? Why I acted such way? 

p/s: Thank you for your cooperative, at last I feel I am free from it already. Guess last night is our last conversation in life. Take Care.

Lovely Weekend

Awhhh, I love my weekend so much although it is a real tired ones than ever. Driving around, caught in traffic jams, messed around with peoples, movies, sleep and eat...A real relaxing weekend for me, leaving those nerve-racking stuff aside.

Went to PJ on last Friday, popped by bro's place and it was awfully tiring, almost fall asleep. But I can't sleep yet coz have to finish up the assignments as promised. Tummy drooling.....Told bro I miss Domino's Pizza. He ordered two pizza and we had our dinner-Pizza at his little cottage. It's filling and I can continue my journals thingy.

While waiting for that pig to finish work, I almost fall asleep again after done with assignments. It is almost midnight when reached pig's place. Thought of hitting the sack but end up online edit assignments and chat with friends, slept at 3am. GG.com

Yay! Managed to sleep till noon on a Saturday, sweet♥. Something happened on our way out from house, thank God everyone was safe. Continue our journey to Segambut for the famous Seafood noodles. It's a large bowl of noodles full with seafoods!! Previously, I had the soup ones and now I tried the curry ones. It is awesomely delicious with those freshly picked seafoods. It's my second visit to this shop and I am still loving it! Here's some reviews on the famous Yu Ai's Restaurant Seafood Noodle. 

Located at Segambut Utara (Segambut North) is a little township sprawled with small/medium industrial lots. And amidst these workshops and factories, is Restoran Yu Ai … a very popular spot for their Seafood Noodle. Yu Ai’s tawny curry is deep and complex, with layers of warm spices like cinnamon and cloves and ground coriander and a hint of sweetness from the coconut milk. To my surprise, the thick curry simply suits my taste bud and it is not spicy at all! To those curry lovers who can't take too spicy food, here's your pick!  

Restoran Yu Ai (Segambut)

Address: Restoran Yu Ai, 42, Jalan Segambut Utara, Segambut, Kuala Lumpur

Tel: 012-335 5563

Opening hours: 8am-5pm

Direction: Off Jalan Duta-Jalan Kuching roundabout. Maybe not exactly off, from the roundabout heading towards Jalan Ipoh, make a left at the first traffic lights-junction and a right at the next traffic lights, shop is on the left. Sufficient parking in the area. For those who dwell in the primitive art of reading road signs.

Restoran Yu Ai (SS2) Branch Shop
Address : No. 58, Jalan SS2/10, 47300 Petaling Jaya, Selangor
Opening Hours : 11am – 9.30pm
Telephone :03-7877 8177

Average Price : RM17.00 (Large) RM15.00 (Small)

After having our late brunch, headed to KLCC for PC Fair. Guess it will be super duper jam on the road as everyone is heading to the same place. Grrr, I hate traffic jams but have to bear with it. It's KL, urban city, what to do? Big sigh! 

Upon reaching, crowds everywhere! I hate this part as well, but since came already, so we walked around. Shootings, yeah....kept on shooting the showgirls. This year's showgirls was lesser compared to previous. Spent half day at PC Fair, bought WD MY PASSPORT EXTERNAL HARDISK, leather hard case for my i-Read, optical mouse from Sensonic...etc. So damn heavy taking all those treasured stuff, and the photographer kept on shooting non-stop. My apology to Mimi and Chin Lee, unable to help you guys buy anything coz I only have two hands and insufficient of cash. =(

 Leather Hard Case for my i-REad

My Passport Essential Hardisk

500GB External Hardisk from WD

Was so damn tiring and had swallow shoulders *Argh, I need massage!* Gosh, the LRT station was crowded, simply hate crowds! Get our tickets back to AP, collected our car and zoomed....back home. Slept in the car coz am so exhausted till moodless. Ordered Pizza Hut and watched "Confession of A Shopaholic" and most importantly is aircond! *grin* Miss and love this life, much better than in Kampar where you stuck in a hot and humid room. A nice movie....can't stand anymore...Zzzz

Reviews on "Confession of A Shopaholic" : Directed by P.J.Hogan and casted by Isla Fisher, it is indeed a funny movie with romance. Click here for the summary of the movie. Shoppings!! This is what every girls crazy about but have a limited credit to do so...What's more? Work hard, earn hard, and shop hard! 

Sunday...

Woohoo! It's Sunday...gonna spend my whole day for shopping. Went to Bangsar Village and parked at the basement. Walked around boutiques at Jalan Telawi while waiting for my dear Nor. Felt so grateful that Nor meet me up even she is still sick. All the boutiques were on the sales of 20% store wide! Unfortunately, only manage to get two tops. =( 

Met up with Nor and had our meal at THE DAILY GRIND. The restaurant is famous for their burgers, which is their signature dish. It comes in a big portion therefore we ordered a Down On The Farm Burger(Beef) and Salad Garlic Chicken and fruit juice for both of us. The restaurant is quite cosy with dim lights along with oldies, indeed a very typical western restaurant. We kept on chatting while eating, end up sitting there for 2hrs+ before we go for boutiques haunt. 

Top: Down On The Farm Burger. Juicy tender beef patty served with garden salad, crunchy onion rings, fries and corn cake. RM32

 Bottom: Salad Garlic Chicken, yummy with toasted bread cubes and green olives. RM18

The Daily Grind

Address: LG8, Lower Ground Bangsar Village, 

               1, Jalan Telawi 1, Bangsar Baru, 59100 KL.

Contact: 03-22876708

Had a nice outing with Babe Nor, quenched our thirst at PappaRich before leaving. Collected the car and to my surprise, RM9 for the parking fee! Wth! First time in my life for such expensive parking fee! Continue shop at 1U, main purpose is to look for something for someone since I got nothing to buy already. Prolly over my limit, battery flat..seriously need rest! Hang around at 1U then headed back home Zzzz...going bck to the dead town the next day..Presentation!

p/s: Thanks dear for everything ♥ Appreciate it! =)

A Night with Tears

I am suppose to be on the bed right now but I woke up and blogged this since I do not know who to go to.

It's 2am in the morning, I shall be feeling exciting coz am going to KL. But, nothing thrills me. Instead, tears  and sadness came to me.

Why am I awake and sat in front of my lappie? Credits to Twitter which makes me tears unruly. Was checking out twits before I shut my eyes. Out of sudden, saw your updates which is a hard ones as you seldom tweet. Am simply running out of my mind! What the hell am I doing that makes me run into it? Curiosity? Caring? Or??

Clicked and checked them out. Thanked to my foolishness, gained an unhappy ones. 

In tears because I see similarities 

In tears because it reminds me of something

In tears because I miss the notes you wrote to me

In tears because I miss the meal you prepared for me

In tears because I miss the days you take care of me when I am sick

In tears because I miss Teddy

But I do not know whether you still exist deep inside me

Wondering what the tears mean

Wondering do you still remember me

Wondering if you still care

Wondering do you really changed to a stranger I no longer recognize

I know all these shall not pop up in my mind again

I told myself stop caring and thinking

What the hell is happening with me?

Why still look backward? 

It's crappy and noobish!

Confusion

Life is about trusting our feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the past. 

Is this true? Or perhaps erasing the memories? Doubt~

Was browsing through those day's pictures from Year1 Sem1 from my pendrive, since am looking for spaces to store my latest picture folders. Looking back to the past, I laughed. A lot of funny, happy, joy and sad moments. All locked in the pictures we've taken. 

Found out a lot of MSN Print Screen pictures, never thought there are this much of pictures taken until I view them today. These pictures make me smile and feel sweet, but that was already a past thingy. No point thinking and my friend asked me:" Are you going to delete the pictures?" I can't even utter a word. Seriously, I do not know what to do. No doubt, I am still loving the pictures although they were taken by mobile phones, not any high end cameras or so. 

How are you doing?

Wonders

Pondering about...

Am I thinking the right thing?

Am I doing something wrong?

Am I making the right decision?

Things are puzzling me

What should I do?

Yes

I hope that

I want too

I miss it

But, there are always boundaries in life

My apology

For ruin everything

Chillax Saturday Night

It's been awhile since our last hangout together, 24/7/2010 is the night we gather again and chill. Tagged along my girls with me and had our girls night out besides a small gathering with my buddies.

Big thanks to Eric for coming down to Kampar all the way from Ipoh to fetch us. Kinda early upon reaching Club 9, here are some snap shots with my dearies.

Had a crazy night with the guys and my sista! To my dear bro, no mixed alcohol next time yea! Ending up with two drunkards, pukes and stuff...yikes! Luckily I did not puke after seeing people puke *grin*. Oh my dearies, you both are way too heavy, dragged two drunkards out from the club. Phew!

Met up with a lot of friends, the night looks as if it was our secondary gatherings. Awww, I miss our gang!
A huge thanks to Eric for fetching us back and to Jayz as well for following us behind, just to carry my drunky sista..LOL!

A tired one but happy and enjoyable night with you guys. Love our girls night out and guys night out, cheers!

The Bachelors: Eric, Bryant, Jayz, Matthew, Alex, Sam
The Sista: Gywen, Fiona & Me

Venue: Club 9, Ipoh

Ambience: 7/10
Service: 7/10

A Weekend's Excursion

Hey people! It's another weekend of the month, watcha doing during yours off day? Bet everyone is having sweet time with their loved ones, could it be the dearest family, friends or partner. Unfortunately, the only accompanied me on this mundane weekend was pile of work loads. Nothing more than assignments and projects. Brain storming ideas till run out of ideas and so, the internet connection in my hostel gave me a bad treat as well. 

Woke up at noon on a Saturday ain't feeling any good, impaired with headache and sore shoulder. Hardly get proper rest these days just to meet up with deadlines. Got steamed up with the slow connection and house-mate's selfishness, hence made up my mind to hit the Starbucks for a cup of my favorite and do my work over there. My son (Nic) is having the same thought too, and off we went to Starbucks, Ipoh. 

Naturally, people tend to travel down South or up to North for food haunt or short trip with the families. Traffic flow eventually be a slow one no matter you are on a highway or trunk road heading down to Ipoh. Anyway, reached Ipoh Parade/Parkson safe and sound. Parked the "darling" on top of the car park since there is no empty slot in the basement. 

Tummy was drooling and we looked for some food which can fill up our tummy. Anyway, never put high hopes on Ipoh Parade when looking for nice food, just had our simple brekky/brunch at Kopitiam Junction before headed over Starbucks. After get our tummy filled, walked over Starbucks but it was so crowded and no empty table or seat for us. Fortunately, we managed to get a nice sofa seat and borrowed an extension from the counter. 

It was already late noon, started my day with a cup of Hot Caramel Macchiato, my all time favorite espresso.A Starbucks original. Foamed milk marked with espresso and vanilla, then topped with a distinctive caramel pattern. Indulgent, buttery and intense.

Cold & Hot Caramel Macchiato

Internet connection is way better than in Kampar, thus enjoy doing my assignments along with love songs. Am feeling the enjoyment of indulging myself once in a blue moon with a cup of classic coffee. A care free and stress free moment, doing research happily with the great connection of Internet. Again, I constantly feel good whenever I popped into this coffee outlet. Even it is a oneself drinking session, am absolutely enjoying it! 

It is already 7pm, had our second cup of beverage. Wish to try on something different than the usual ones, opted for Caffe Mocha, a combination of mocha chocolate, espresso, steamed milk and whipped cream. *As recommended by the Barista* Ordered a slice of Blueberry Cheese Cake as snacks to satisfy my crave over desserts.

Caffe Mocha & Blueberry Cheese Cake

Felt bored and tired, took some shots :

Testing out my iPhone camera *alot of noise*

So hardworking over Flash Game!

No idea why this kid wants to hold the plate instead of putting on the table

A master piece of arts

Another piece of painting

A nice portrait

Spent my Saturday at Starbucks from afternoon till 12am only headed off back to death town. I am against the time, something so-called jet lag. Staying up with a long conversation.....
 

Sunday- continue staying awake and drove to Ipoh for early Dim Sum as promised. Joining in were Emilie, Danny and his cousin. Salute to myself for not sleeping over the passed 16hrs and drove back to Kampar. 

Slept till evening and happened to be in the mode of continue the work loads. To my surprise, not only my house having the internet connection problem, even my friend's house as well. Fed up and called mom, got a feeling wanted to drive back to my sweet home. Still, end up I am at Kampar and fully utilize the connection when everyone is asleep.

Exhausted

Life's a bitch. If it was a slut, it'd be easy. 

Feeling

Exhausted, dead tired, worn out

When all these gonna end?

I wonder

Live every act fully, as if it were your last.

And yes, I cherish every moment I had

Stretch to the maxima

Did it as if it is my last one

How about you?

A Recovery Night

A dreadful night

Stress or depress?

Had no idea at all

Suffered headache from assignments

A hard predicament happened

Feels the stretch

A rusty ones

Here comes hatred

In the period of hard time

They lend me a helping hand

My dear son~Nicholas 

My roomate a.k.a bestie~Mimi

Went for a breath taking ride

on a recovered darling a.k.a AUDI

A nice car to drive

Simply smooth and nice

*psst, yes I am noobish over continental cars*

Had durian by the roadside

My first time experience having heaty fruits in the wee hours

People are chasing over World Cup semi-final

and we are nomming on durians

Yummylicious!

Mental pressure conquered me

Let's take a ride to Ipoh! 

Went to McD

Ordered Happy Meal

*psst, not mine!* 

 A happy session full with laughter 

It's 3AM!

Headed back to Kampar

Had a great night with my dearies

Big thanks to Son Son & Mimi

You guys helped me alot in DE-STRESS! 

Love u guys!!♥

Gleeful Moment

Woot woot! Am feeling perky and peppy..so damn spirited and pleased! I wonder what is going on with me, but am simply happy. Prolly parents are coming back from OZ and can't wait to see what Mom got for me from OZ. It's been 2 weeks since my last trip back to Ipoh, listed down my to-do-list and feeling contented to get each of them done in this short period of time. Thus, hitting the satisfaction and increase my level of happiness? LMAO

Although this trip is kinda rushie, but I am gonna complete those to-do in my list. Let's see..Hmm...hair cut, car wash, grocery shopping, visiting the grands, hitting the gym, laundry, more importantly->Starbucks. And I did it tonight!^.^ Shall I get another cup tomorrow? *grin*

It's my first weekend of July and I simply feeling merry over everything, or am I feeling so coz am back to my sweet hometown? Whatever it is, feels like am getting back the life that I had been longing for some time. Although it's not the one I wanted like what I had back in PJ. Tehehehe..... Regained a breathable life back here, unlike in Kampar, getting moody everyday and leading unhealthy lifestyle. 

Albeit being home-alone and going Starbucks alone as well, but I like the enjoyment of being solo coz I get the peaceful moment I wanted *psst, once in a blue moon only*. Simply love being unattended at times where there is no toleration, no worries, undisturbed, having a restful time, enjoying the state of being tranquil and luxuriate into a cozy moment.

Corner of Addiction

I feel alive & vivacious

Regaining the colors of life

An interesting ones

A long missed out moments

Tadaa!!

It's my place of addiction!! 

♥Starbucks♥

*Crazee over it prolly due to the absence of such places in Kampar*

Getting a cup of Hot Caramel Macchiato

 One of my best fav coffee beverages in Starbucks

The hot cup comes along with a light sandwich

Chicken&Cheese Smoked Ham Sandwich

 and here they are

My dinner!

It's been a month since my last cup of Coffee

over addicted to it and miss it so much

as if I am taking drugs

Starbucks is on my first to-do-list back in Ipoh
Am dropping by Starbucks 
Having the meal n drink
all ALONE
but it's definitely an enjoyment of life!
Drinking the hot cup and blogging from Starbucks
Although alone but I love it
Enjoyed the once in awhile of loneliness
 Simply loves the peaceful nite along with jazz

It's been awhile since my last cup of coffee

*Note: I can only take coffee made of pure beans*

Can't take Nescafe/Oldtown White Coffee or any other mixture of coffee

Having an allergy against them

So, taking Starbucks/Coffee Bean is not because of the fame 

But pure and originality

Eye for quality rather than pricing

Heart Starbucks lots!
Floating over the satisfaction
Feeling blissful and in love
Truly-Madly-Crazily
Over it

Shall I get you and blend you myself? *smirk*